Eat Deal

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Here we go….I have a friend couple in their 30s having two kids. We have been barely in a touch in the past year and as far as I have realized so far she has always liked me…how do i know…well, we used to talk a lot many years ago dealing with situations and problems most of them were mine and we got along really well. I felt like she was into me(because of given smiles, touching my leg while having diner - we were sitting next to each other quite often) and well i guess in case she was single it would be hot between us. You just feel these sympathies. So last weekend me and wife of my friend decided to go out like partying that we haven’t talked for a long time and to have a good time. It all started really innocently with a diner and everything went well at a friendly level when we continued at a bar when we got a bit drunk and started talking flirty.
As I knew her status and the fact that I know her family really, really well and we are(were) good friends I never dared to initiate something this direction as it would end up tragically for everyone of us especially when children are involved. Later on, we got into a club and everything seemed okay until moment when she started flirting with a guy in there(touching, sweet talks conversation….) and this started making me incredibly jelaous. Firstly, I tried to hide it and pretended not being interested in her(again as i knew her status but i’m sure she noticed fractions of my jelaousy)…anyway i nearly got into a fight over her but suddenly the other guy disappeared. Then we had more and more drinks and more talks like that and both of us were pretty trashed when finally we got into a cab where i was holding her shoulder and hand during the drive. Well, having come back home we started pulling off our clothes - not one another’s, but own as we got wet, it had been raining and
and finally ended up in her(their) bed(in underwear not naked) talking again flirty and she was curious about my personal life(quite in details) the same direction was i and at this moment i was like into her intended to start off something although i knew the whole situation but i didn’t do so. I do know, if I started something off, she would agree eventhough she had said not to initiate anything but I had seen her attitude towards my persona. We didn’t get physical at all except when I just only took her hand and we talked nicely and finally fell asleep hand in hand. In the morning after we woke up both of us were trying to give signals like “i want you to be mine!!!”..lol…smiles, etc etc. and then during the breakfast she kinda complained about her marriage how her husband treats her and which direction she wishes her marriage to head and things like that. I’m clueless about expectations she had about the night and so and we both didn’t dare to start a conversation about this issu
The very end finalized with just a goodbye and then with my sms in the evening how is she. Now, I am confused. I’m glad that nothing happened because of the family connection and on the other hand something tells me that I should have given her at least a kiss goodbye. In this case I had to follow my mind to do what was right regardless of what my conscience kept telling me to go for her. I’ve been thinking of her since then and I think I have to wait before I’ll realize what it actually was. Now here my question stands…how would you react? In my position when you consider all matters how would you behave in your best manner despite moral rules and standarts and ladies what you would expect if you were in her role and had in fact nothing in common with your spouse. If you consider it as either a lust or love despite fact that you have never experienced this.

Bonnie